Who am I that you are thinking of me…

So as many probably know, today was see you at the pole. I woke up a little late so i rushed around getting ready soon discovering that it was raining outside.. ugh great see you at the pole was going to be in the rain and i will be soaked.. Well I got there and guess what?? NO ONE WAS OUTSIDE.. i rushed inside and went to the office asking where everyone was.. little theater here i come.. I went down the hall and in the theater-  talk about awkward.. I didnt know ANYONE! Thats ok im not here for the people im here for God! We were all sitting down when all the sudden this guy started playing the guitar. Everyone is still sitting down? What is up with people these days? No respect for God.. jeez, if you cant tell this was irritating to me. No one is singing?  Oh my gosh cherry on top of my irritation.. Finally i stood thinking well.. why not? And soon everyone was standing. The first song I didnt know so i just kinda stood there and soon i picked up on the words. Praying for Gods holy spirit to be in that place at that time and for nothing to be out of his will. For him to guide our steps.. The second song I was totally oblivious to what song this was or even the beat. Lost in a world where me and my father are alone. 3rd song comes and as we sing Who am I that you are thinking of me, out of tune, wrong notes and all, i begin to cry my eyes out.. Lord Who am I that you are thinking of me- how you hear me- when i call…. is it true that you are thinking of me- how you love me- its amazing!! It was then and there that i realized the importance of worshipping God with or without music. As off key it was you would think i would be distracted.. But instead I found myself surrounded in the presence of God, feeling the warmth and the comforting that the Lord always puts over me. Im a sucker for the honest truth pure worship, it seems to pull the strings of my heart more than any million dollar record company could!! God always pours his spirit upon me in the weirdest times. Here I am crying at school in a room full of people I have hardly even seen before because the God I worship is more amazing than anything or even words!!

Worship was over and we got into a circle to pray for the schools the teachers our country etc. Boy was I nervous.. Why? I have not a clue. We began to take turns praying I felt the holy spirit telling me to open my mouth. I couldnt it was hard. But I knew that if I hadnt listened to the words of the holy spirit I would have regretted it for so long. It was silent as I opened my mouth. The thoughts in my head before I began only seemed to be, oh my word im going to start and then get lost, what will I say, my prayer isnt good enough. I finally decided that the enemy is a lie and he has no control over me. I opened my mouth and the words flew from my mouth as it was some kind of speech i had practiced before hand. When I started the silence soon grew into yes God and thank you God. I couldnt help but tremble every part of me feeling like I was going to melt into a big pile of mush.. My heart felt like it was pounding in my ears but like it was ripped out at the same time.. The pure and true worship really doesnt come from the amazing voices or the guitar that is on key. The pure and true worship doesnt even come from the best prayer you would pray, it comes from the heart, offering everything you have to your father and expecting nothing in return. As the meeting concluded I felt like I was on top of the world! Father thank you for hearing us and for the freedom you gave us this morning. We worship you in spirit and in truth!! With compassion and purity!

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