Finals = The Death Of Me

So i have almost made it through sophmore year with a few bumps in the road but nothing major until today when I found out that I cant be a Kansas Scholar because I failed a half semester of ALBREBRA 2 HONORS!!! How ridiculous is that- right? I mean I could see if it was a whole year or if i didnt get credit for many things by i am 1/2 a credit away from being a Kansas scholar.. it is getting reviewed by the administration as we speak so please be in prayer for that! I really need something to pull through on this one.. But God has been changing my heart when it comes to college and career choice anyway, so there is a good possiblity that God is closing doors because this is not His plan and not His will.

FINALS are this week too! So watch out i will be all BlAh-NeSs!! I promise the will be the death of me.. and my finals determine my next year.. so if you would i need stregnth and knowledge and the ability to retain as much knowledge as possible.. thank you for your prayers!!

The Flood

So at the last youth conference a very wise and amazing person ministered to us. Specifically to me. The message spoke to my heart most definitely. Out of sharing her personal experiences and pouring out her heart to us something that stuck with me was, ” What kind of God are you when I screw up.”‘ Ever since then this has stuck with me. And right now in the midst of everything im going through whether it be stress or confusion, I know that God is a God of knowledge and understanding, He is a God of hope and love and comfort and peace. And even though I am human and I make mistakes and I mess up -> I know exactly what kind of God He is when I mess up. He is a forgiving God full of mercy and grace. He is full of Love that he pours on me every second of my life. He is a God of forgiveness and I am so thankful Lord that when I screw up you are never changing and you Love me just the same. I have learned to stop justifying and I have learned on a deeper level repentance.

 

Oh how thankful I am of the very wise Kayla Bradshaw! You seriously have had an impact on my life tremendously, you will never know how much you & your sister have ministered to me and helped me with many things just by seeing the true worship of your heart. thank you for being faithful and thank you for being a light that I sometimes need to see. =]

long lost blog..

So I kinda forget about this blog sometimes but while im remembering it i figured i would take advantage.

Oh what the Lord has been doing in my life!

Its kind of amazing the see the progress in my prayer and seeking God. Im supposed to speak  Sunday to the junior high and right now im like, “Lord- I have no clue what to speak and I cant do this on my own, im so lost without you so Holy Spirit guide my words and let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you!” I make it so much more dramatic than it really is but its simply because I get so nervous when speaking.. But God has given me the strength and courage and boldness and today is a new day and so I will walk in the steps of the Holy Spirit and know that I will not be out of his will!

I will continue to seek His face- for I know the end! I hold the keys. Duh! =]

tbc- one day soon hopefully……